psychedelic_yo

Mon, 31 Dec 2007 05:04:42 GMT

i made a new livejournal

it is africanamelia

that is my new name.

http://africanamelia.livejournal.com/profile

Mon, 31 Dec 2007 01:13:41 GMT

Jesus is Lord!
God is so amazing.
he has my heart.

Tue, 25 Dec 2007 18:53:05 GMT

I really have to pee.
But as you all know me,
I'm not going to yet.

New favorite song?

Tue, 25 Dec 2007 07:50:39 GMT

Well,i'll go a head and try to piece it together.
It basically said that I miss you. i miss what we were, we drifted a lot, and I wish it were the same, what happened to us? We were best friends, but you have new friends and it seems like you don't need me anymore. Maybe i'm overreacting, but i'm telling the truth, I wish we were still as close as we were before. You were there for me when i was going through a lot, and you helped me get through it all. I thought we were BFFL's. They say its a promise, not a label. Maybe in our situation it was a label. It stands for Best Friends For Life. Now it seems like were strangers. You don't know how much you truly mean to me. Yeah, your decisions disappoint me, but i'll get over that. I know that you have to get away, and you feel like there is nobody there for you, open your eyes. I've been here all along, i've been there right next to you. I wish you would realize how much your breaking my heart. I'm not aiming to make your mad, or put guilt on you or anything like that. I just wish you would know where i'm coming from.
Even though i'm not yours, You will still remain my best friend.

I hope you take your time and read this.
Its coming from my heart.

Just remember, i'm not trying to push any buttons.
I just want you to know where i'm coming from.

I love you,FOREVER and ALWAYS!

Mon, 24 Dec 2007 07:35:19 GMT

I wrote this long long thing for you.
I wont post it, it wont make a difference.

I'll just say this...
I miss you.

Thu, 20 Dec 2007 00:27:58 GMT

she smiled in a big way, the way a girl like that smiles
when the world is hers and she held your eyes
out in the breezeway down by the shore in the lazy summer
and she pulled you in, and she bit your lip, and she made you hers
she looked deep into you as you lay together quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer

but you've already lost
but you've already lost
but you've already lost
when you only had barely enough to hang on

and she combed your hair, and she kissed your TEETH
and she made you better than you'd been before
she told you bad things you wished you could change in the lazy summer
and she told you, laughing down to her core, so she would not cry as she lay in your lap
she said "nobody here can live forever, quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer"

but you've already lost
but you've already lost
but you've already lost
when you only had barely enough to hang on

she said, "no one is alone the way you are alone"
and you held her looser than you would have if you ever could have known
some things tie your life together, slender threads and things to treasure
days like that should last and last and last

but you've already lost
but you've already lost
but you've already lost
when you only had barely enough of her to
hang on, hang on, hang on, hang on but you've already lost

Mon, 17 Dec 2007 04:06:52 GMT

People's decisions disappoint me,
It's fine, I'll get over it.
I know I can't control you.

Just know that when you fall,
I'll be here to pick you up,
And help you as much as I can.

I love you with my whole heart.

<3

Mon, 26 Nov 2007 05:40:26 GMT

Why does everybody always want me to post crap in my livejournal.
If you want to know whats going on in my world,
Ask me in person.

When I do write in here,
Its because I'm really bored.
Or I have nothing to do.

Well Maybe I post something tomorrow.
Oh and Annie,I'm so proud of you.
I love you bby gurl!

Oh,and Jessica...
Baby Gurl be CRAMPIN!

[=

Sun, 11 Nov 2007 04:58:02 GMT

No more am i putting ANYTHING in front of God.
No more am i ANYONE in front of God.
I don't want to ruin the relation we have.
Its going really good right now,
and i'm NOT going to jeopardize it.
He is the most amazing thing in the world.
And i love him more then ANYTHING!
There is nothing i would do to make him ashamed of me,
no longer will i be lukewarm for Him.
I am forever on fire for my one and only.
He will guide me on my journey.
I no longer need a map.
Oh gosh.
its so amazing what my word does to me,
its so phenomenal.
I'm so happy to be alive,
and i'm so happy for what God is pouring inside of me,
I'm a lucky one.

I am going to change this world,
Just wait and see!

dang,

Sat, 10 Nov 2007 22:59:25 GMT

So I've come to this block in a road with people.
I just don't understand man sometimes.
The enemy has been whispering things in my ear,
And i was listing to him,
But didn't act anything out.
Thank The Lord.

So last night i could label a bad night,
well underground was.
It seems that when Meghan goes out to witness,
and lead people to the lord on Fridays.
Then something goes terribly wrong at UG.

It seems like the more i open up to people,
The more i let them in and trust them,
And bring down the wall,
They stab me in the heart.

I've been trying as hard as i can to be strong,
But these days i don't know my true friends,
from my real friends.

But other the that i've been getting better.
I really feel myself growing with God.
Expanding my mind with amazing thoughts,
and things i will need to change this world.

I'm doing okay in school,
Got my quarter grades in,
No D's or F's!
This is good stuff.

Well my feet are FROZEN,
And my hair is wet...
My plans were ruined,
I'm going to hang out with my dad today [=

"My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever."
psalm 73:26

Well i love each and one of you,
you all are amazing to me,
and i hope you find your way
because God is amazing,
and can help you though anything,
and everything.

Turn to him in a time of need,
hes the best mentor ever.
He WILL be there when no one else is,
He WILL be there when you need someone to talk to,
When no one else will listen to what you have to say.
God will be there.

I hope everyone will come to realize this,
I'm so happy that i have God on my side.
He is my best friend,my savior,my life.

I no longer live for the enemy,
nor do i live for man.
I live for God and only Him.

I hope you do to.
I would love to see you in Heaven.

"And when you pray,do not be like hypocrites,
for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on
the street corners to be seen by man. I tell you the truth,
they have received their reward in full. But when you
pray,go into your room,close your door and pray to your
Father,who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what
is done in secret, will reward you. And when you pray,
so not keep babbling like pagans, for they thing they
will be heard because of their many words. Do not be
like them, for your Father knows what you need before
you ask him."
Matthew 6:5-8

I cant express in words.
How much i LOVE reading my word.

Basically,

Mon, 05 Nov 2007 04:35:53 GMT

This weekend was fun.
Friday-
-School,wasn't so great but,when is it great?
-Then after school my sister took me to target,
and FINALLY bought me moccocains.
and the goood 5 gum,and a vitamen water,
becuase there were no more smart waters.
-And i could watch TV now,so i watched Degrassi!
and it was SO "intense" hahah dumbbbb
-Theeennnn UG!
Bella Marie played there
they are basically like my favorite people,
well only John and Mike.
John gave me two amazing hugs,haha
he picked me up,i was scared i didn't know that could happen,
uhhh and then Mike remembered my name and i was happy.
and Mike gave the shirt he was wearing off his back,
but i have to give it back to him
when they come back to ug.
ohh! and my mentor bought me a monsterrr!
she is so cute,i love her so mucccchh.

Saturday-
Uh i was mad i didn't get to sleep in,
because my sister woke me uppppp.
uhhhh my brother and sister left to go to there dads.
then Meghan came over for a mentor meeting,
and it was kinda awkward becuase
my mom and my sister were here.
uhhh me and meg and manda got into like a convo
about degrassi and stuff.
uhhhhhh then i watched The Invisible.
HECKA HECKA HECKA good movie.
boring at first then it gets goodddd!!!!

Sunday-
woke up like at 7 freakin out becausei was late for SOA
but then i remembered it was day light savings time.
so yeah i slept for another 30 mins.
the SOA was boring boring boring
so me meg dav jack and annie left
to go to meghans house so she could get ready for church
but we were late anyways and we had to sit up in the balcony
hecka queer but whatever i could live with it.
uhhhhhhhh then we all went to meghans
and skated and played uno on xbox live.
hecka funnyyyy.
uhh yeah

thats the end of that.

uhm,so i'm doing good,
for any of you who wanted to know,
i'm fat for jesus. i like him,
were going out,haghahahahhaha!

yeah homework time.
byeeeeeeee

I LOVE MY SHMEGHAN!!!!
<333

Honestly.

Sat, 27 Oct 2007 04:10:34 GMT

I'm not as well as you think i am.
i really miss my family,
i never see them,
I feel so homesick,
when i'm already home,
i miss the old atmosphere
that once lived in my house.
but now doesn't.

Things are getting worse.
but i hide them.
i hide them from everyone,
everything, even me.

My mother is getting more irritated with me,
and i don't even do anything to her.
i need to read my word.

my sister is being a butt head to me,
i miss her a lot.
tonight i was going to ask her on a date,
because i haven't talked to her in a while.
but i was scared.
so i didn't ask her.

well yeah life=hectic.

i need to read my word.
i need to read my word.
i love to read my word.
ha,<3

somethings aren't good,

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 04:12:07 GMT

and then some things are.
i can't stand being at this house.
it doesn't matter how great of a day i'm having,
my family will somehow ruin it.
my mother makes me so irritated,
like no other but yeahhhh,
annnnnnnyyyywaaayyysss!

this weekend was sooo fun!
i spent like the whole thing meghan,
hahaha it was great,
lets see,
Friday: school was gay.
underground was kinds boring.
then we were at like savemart for like 256435 days,
me jessica and isaac just sat in one aisle for like 695 days waiting for meghan and jackie.
and then we got some goodies from there and we all went back to meghans house and hung out,
and david was there too,and then we made something and it was kinda good,made me have to poo kinda,
uhhh then mego my ego fell asleep on the couch,and me isaac jack and jess like didn't move from the spot we were in for like 5 hours it was funnn and isaac made fun jokes yeah.
Saturday!
Joannes birthday it was fun,we plaed this game and it was fun,
but really confusing,it made me mad i didn't move once,whatevs.
uhhh then me and issac went down the hill on a skateboard and like i died.
i got a really bad road burn,ouccch it was SOOOOOOOOO Funny!
video WILL be on my myspace SOOOOOON!
uhhhhhhh yeah then we went to annies and saras and we walked to rayles,
and got stuff for smores,and then we walked back and ate nachos by the fire,
then meghan came over and we made smores,and we had like funny conversations,
and stuff and then i got one cornrow on my head,it was cute,
and then blahhh blahh blahhhh
Sunday!
woke up,walked to church with david and the we were ditched by the people we were supposed to be with,
and missed school of the arts so yeah,haters,uhhhhhhh went to service and then after we did amazing race,
which was SO fun but kinda hard,we ran like 2 or 3 miles,
and we got like 4th place but we like really won because we were like the only team who didn't have a driver,BOSH!
but yeah then blahhhh blahh blahhhh i'm home and tired.
i took a shower and i miss my cornrow,
hahaha uhhhhhhhh God is Amazing.
"V" received the holy spirit [=
i have yet to receive it fully.
/= God will let me receive it when he feels its nessacry.

5 days!
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yeaahhhhhhh
goodnight friends Jesus Loves You!

well its down to;

Wed, 03 Oct 2007 04:01:55 GMT

10 dayyyyyyyyys!
well today i can say was pretty good.
i think it is funny my mom always yells at me to wake up at like 7:00
but i don't wake up till 7:15 and i'm the last one awake,
YET i'm the first one to be ready and everything,
well whatever thats how life goes.

well back to my day,
in 1st it was boring,
went over cornel notes and stuff,
whateva! uhhhm, gr it makes me SO angry,
there is this kid that sits like across from me,
and all he does is STARE at me ALL period,
and he is in my 2nd period too,and again,
he stares at me ALL period,
TAKE A FREAKIN PICTURE!
aahhaha
which reminds me,i need to write that paragrah,

uhhhh in 2nd we made like a clock thing,
for partners,idk gayyy

uh,3rd was funny like always,
i don't know whyyy,but whatever,
i have ALL my worksheets done,
and i am DETIRMED to get back to a B!
at least.

4th is lunch me and mad ate cookies,
and yahda yahda yahda

5th math, boring and easy and annoying like ALWAYS!

6th is Health which is fun,sometimes.

7th is Dance/PE which is whatever,
becuase all my group does is jump over sticks.

uhhhh came home cleaned,
did homework
made dinner
myspaced it
ljed it
youtubed it
uhhhhhhhhh photobucketed it!
hahhhahaha

well yeah,
this ones for you Meghan

this is how we communicate nowadays!

so when your black;

Tue, 02 Oct 2007 22:48:59 GMT

is it a must to know all the songs that black people sing?
because my brother and sister know like every song i play that
someone sings that is black,
i'm pretty jealous.
sooo, yeah i just wanted to share my feelings with you,

i'll post a more meaningful later,
haha

soo

Tue, 02 Oct 2007 03:43:19 GMT

i will start writing in these every night i have time
because i want toooo.
haha

well yeah i was just talking to Meghan over texting and
i was laughing afterwards because it reminded me of Sunday when we were waiting for David
after church, well she was like
M-"wow your hair looks really pretty,is that how it is with like nothing in it at all"
A-"yeah its pretty because i'm cute"
pause
A-"juuuust kidding"
M-"hahahahha no you didn't have to say just kidding"
A-"oh well then whatever"
M-"its okay your i'm your mentor you know your pretty no just kiddings here"
A-"hahahahhahhahahahhah"

i don't know maybe it was a "you had to be there moment and be in the conversation" kind of thing

haha yeah well my day was good,
i have some homework to finish up.
11 days till my birthday!
"I'M ALMOST LEGAL!"
hahha,i think only meghan heard me say that on Friday,
well she is like the only one who hears my jokes,
ahaaha. whateva
yeah well like me mad and jess are going to make "I Am A Christian" shirts.
yeaahhhhh were cool
i'm so excited
well yeaahhhh i don't know what i want for my birthday,
something random but useful,
ya know...

well i love you,
homework
shower
pay
sleep!

this post was so useless,
well yeah its to make meghan happyyy,
lol

<33333

i'm eating waffels

Mon, 01 Oct 2007 03:02:55 GMT

for the first time in like 6578675 years bro.
i'm eating them from Meghan hahaha

well today i must say was AMAZINGG!
myself Jessica and David were baptised.
we got there freakin 30min early cause Meg
is dumb and said 8:30 but whateva!

well yeah i need glue for my science homework,
and i don't think we have any,so yeahhhh.
this may be a problem.

i took a 2 hour nap,
i was nice, besides the part where people kept texting and calling me.
BOSH!

welll yeahhhhhh

byee friends

"and all the saints say boshy bosh!"

wow;

Sun, 30 Sep 2007 03:49:05 GMT

its been forever since i have posted a live journal,
i have forgotten all about it;
but now that Meghan has been like "write in yo blog nig"
trying to act all black,pusht freakin Mexicans are crazy.
hhahaaha no but for reals,

nobody really reads these,well the ones that i write,
but here i go,Meghan, this is for you bro.

Well since the last time i have even wrote anything in here,
it was the OLD me the old me who used to be so depressed,
thought so low about herself, who hated herself and the world at most times.

but now i have God in my life,and to tell you the truth,
i haven't been happier. i'm giving everything to him,
everything in me,all the hurt and depression i had in me,
and everything that i went through and all that stuff,

tomorrow i'm getting water baptized and i'm so exited,
i believe from now on God is going to use me more then ever,
i am part of this generation and i will NOT back down,
the enemy has nothing on me, he can not touch me.

I'm finally happy and if you can't accept that then;i'm sorry.

<3